Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Freedom from the Trance

Sleepwalkers: the slow wave sleep stage in a state of low consciousness performing activities that are usually performed during a state of full consciousness.

“Am I dreaming?”  A question I’d ask myself often during my pre-adolescent years.  My life was spent in a perpetual haze, daydreaming to get me through the harsh reality that was my world. It was one way of coping – conjuring up fantasies offered relief; other times it made things worse.  I began to wonder if I was walking this world half-asleep.  My inquiry grew and I started noticing others and watching their patterns. I became convinced no one is ever fully awake. “We’re all asleep in a dream together and nothing is real.” The thought made me shudder. I forced myself to stop thinking it.  But as we all know what we resist persists.  There was no letting go.  Not until I sat, embraced the notion and fully understood what it means to be completely awake.